I honestly don't know how I feel about you, everytime, when I was with you or when I thought about you. I honestly don't. I try to figure out since forever, but I couldn't.
If you think I'm mad, I'm not. If you think I'm sad, I'm not. And if you think I'm okay, I'm not. Hahh *exhale loudly*
I guess I was just terribly frustrated, for the way we ended up like this before I could even figure out how I feel about you, about us.
For the way you treated me. Like who gave you permission to chat when you feel like chatting, to tease when you feel like teasing or even to walk away when you feel like walking away? Who allow you to treat me like that?
We've been friends for as long as I could remember, I mean I don't remember lotsa things definitely! I could not even remember my sister's birthday, or mak's phone number. But you come and go as you please, it makes my heart itchy you know? I deserved to be treated better don't you think? It really upsets me.
There are times, when I feel happy. There are times when I feel annoyed. There are times that I get jealous. There are times I feel this and that. But I just couldn't figure how exactly I feel about you. All this time, I can't.
Maybe because I haven't move on. Maybe because I think what I thought was unreal. Maybe I was afraid. Maybe I don't think we could go far. Or maybe, because I know you too well. I don't know. The only thing I know, I can never win over your ego. Never in a million years. Do you see what I saw in you besides the kindhearted guy that you are? Your ego always wins. Always. If it's not, then your name should have been on my phone screen rite now. Don't you think?
But above all that,
Thank you for being the guy who brought me mcflurry when I was sick.
Thank you, for being the guy who came at 1 in the morning to bring me to the hospital.
Thank you, for being a great company most of the time.
Thank you, for your patience as you have been "orang yang paling (and i mean PALING) sabar" all this while.
Thank you for the time, money and energy spent.
And thank you, for everything.
I could not ask for more. What you gave was more than what I needed.
I'm truly sorry for not giving the best I could, but you have always brought out the best in me. Be happy. Be you.
I guess I'm gonna miss the third raya, am I? :)
**Ralat. Maybe this is the feeling has been haunting me for the past few days. Or weeks. Or months. Or I should just go to sleep now.
Sunday, November 24, 2013
Monday, October 21, 2013
Aku duk jalan jalan blog hat (amboi hat sangat, seghupa orang kedah la pulakkk) dulu dulu yang aku ingat lagi, ai tak boleh jadi. Depa duk bukukan perjalanan depan ke sana ke sinun, aku nak ada travelog lists jugak! Ampa jaga ampa jaga, hat tahun lepaih punya cerita, hat dua tahun lepaih punya cerita, aku pedulik apa? Siapla aku nak up jugak dalam blog. Ampa tunggu. Siap ada part 1, part 2, part part see coo le'part bagai la. Kakaka
*mode : semangat waja yang kelam kelam ja benaqnya
yg berkate lebat :: Aleen Aiden at 9:55 PM